“There’s a comfort in what you know, but there’s a time for letting go….the decision will be enough… when you’re a victim of a change of heart.”
‘Cast the Net’, I Awake (album), Sarah Blasko, 2013
I’m moving to Melbourne. The decision was made in May, back when I started my blog. It was spur of the moment. I could see big change on the horizon with our impending corporate restructure. I wanted a sense of control as I was scared. Scared of losing the opportunity to do the one thing I’m really good at. Scared of losing the chance to help people. Scared of losing my professional identity.
Deep down I knew I needed a change. The creeping shadow of comfort and it’s by-product of professional decay were darkening the approach to my work. When I realised, my reaction was gutteral, my decision impetuous. So much that I communicated it immediately, and poorly, to my leaders. “I am moving to Melbourne”. You see, I needed right then to verbalise my surety to commit, as if being directed by others. For one of the few times in my life I knew it had to be all about me right then; it would help me look after everyone else later on. Where my move will lead me professionally I don’t know, and right now that is a source of romance and adventure. I am going there to learn again.
If sitting on one’s laurels is hubris, putting your reputation to the wind in the pursuit of innovation is the opposite. Life is shorter than I previously thought. There is more to learn and try than I realised before. Two words I once heard from a leader I respect ring true for me right now: courage and naivety. In small moments and big decisions; take a risk, and another one.
Two weeks ago I was sitting down in a get together of my 400 closest colleagues to learn our new strategy. I had busted down some walls to be there, got the nod a few days earlier; and so had not contributed a thing towards the running of the day. I thought of my mates who were running workshops in places like Perth at that moment and couldn’t make it. On instinct, I looked at my tablet, then around for Helen Blunden, someone who I’ve gravitated to this year because she has courage and naivety (abundantly). When I found her, I said “You want to back-channel today?”. “I was about to ask you the same thing”, Helen replied, smiling back. And we did, in a ground-breaking moment for our department and our use of Yammer. We are proud of that.
You can catch-up on the fruits of the back-channelling at Helen’s rather excellent blog here:
…and you could do worse than to follow her Twitter handle @activatelearn.